The mother.

Not a happy post and has some triggers so – Trigger Warning. I’ve come to the realisation that my mother might have/have had PDA. It makes sense now that I think about it. She never did any housework, even when she was the sole parent and the house was crawling with ants and the dishes […]

Emotional Lability

Emotional lability, or the Pseudobulbar affect, is where a person shows exaggerated or over the top emotional responses that is often not related to the person’s emotional state. For me this means that I cry, a lot. Situations that will typically invoke a sad feeling in others where they may frown or shake their head […]

Do my disabilities define me?

Define: State or describe exactly the nature, scope or meaning of. Some people say ‘Autism doesn’t define you’ or ‘don’t let you disabilities define you’ or ‘don’t let your past define who you are today’ etc. Other people say ‘how can my past not define who I am when it’s impacted upon my personality and […]

Why anxiety self-help only half works.

There are many articles out there that explain how to overcome anxiety. While there’s a lot of useful information in them I think they only half work. The advice given has merit, dealing with the facts rather than emotions that surround your anxieties, exercise, avoid caffeine and alcohol, practising breathing and meditating etc. While these […]

The ‘Smile’.

The ‘Smile’ is the name I give for when, regardless of how I’m feeling, if someone sees me I automatically smile. I hate this. It’s not true to me. It’s a fake ‘I’m fine please don’t talk to me’ smile. It’s a way of hiding my feelings, putting distance between myself and everyone else and […]